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I keep a journal for both of my kiddos and I LOVE it! I think it is almost as much for me, as it is for them! :) I try to write in it at least once a week, sometimes I write every day, sometimes, I write three times a month! But, it has been awesome to write down the things that they do or say on a daily/weekly/monthly basis! It is fun to look back and remember all of those little things that they did! I can't WAIT to give these journals to each child when they get married!! I have been looking back at my previous entry's and it is SO much fun to see how my kids have grown and changed!! They are such good, sweet, SMART kids! I am amazed at them constantly and I love them so much! :) Of course every parents loves their child, but I am in awe of how my love grows for them every single day! :) They are such great little people!! :)

It is also good to know that you DO forget about the hard days and press on towards the wonderful days!!! The last entry I read was from the beginning of September 2009! Maddie was just 14 months old and Zack was 1 1/2 months old! It was the first time I had taken them both to the grocery store by myself!! In the duration of our 30 minutes there, Maddie had managed to open BOTH a box of cereal and a box of pasta and dumped them both on the floor! Of course I couldn't find different people to clean up both messes so I had a grumpy sales-person AND a hungry screaming baby on my hands!! I remember SO well getting in the car feeling SO defeated, wondering if my life would ever be "normal" again! :) My daughter was sad because she knew I was upset with her, and my son was screaming with hunger!! AUGH!! What was I to d?? So, I cried! :):) A lot!

Now, I laugh at the memory!! I am SURE I looked like I had NO clue what was going on!! And how on EARTH had I let my 14 month old open TWO boxes and dump them out...where was I?? Oh yeah,I was the mom trying frantically to get a few groceries so I could cook a meal for my family!! :) I can be so hard on myself sometimes! I am not perfect...I don't say the perfect things or always act the perfect way! BUT I am work in progress, for God, for myself, for my husband and for my kids!!! I am SO THANKFUL for where God has led us to this point!! Life ISN'T always easy! Actually it will never be easy if we are doing what God has called us to do! BUT...it. is. SO! GOOD!!! :) I am SO grateful for God's timing being so much better than my own! I am so thankful for the way He teaches me and stretches me to grow in Him every single day!!!! THANKS God for your perfect plan for us!!!!